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 Hi..I'm Sandhee Srivastava. Who is still figuring out what to do , where to go in life . Professional overthinker who would cry her eyes out at night until she fall asleep ,who is trying to heal emotionally , mentally and yes maybe even financially. 

 I'm someone who grew around emotionally unavailable people, and unfortunately only attracted emotionally unavailable and narcissistic people when I came out the bubble ( my home ) 

My life till school have not been very happening, I had no friends who I could really count on , I have never been able to fully open up even in front of my friends, the thought of being judged by them always freaked me out . I have never been able to express myself fully and open up my heart to my friends and even to my own family. Till my Junior college I was never allowed to go out with my friends , because according to my parents good students do not hang out and have fun they just stay home and study! And if you do not follow this rulebook made by them you are suddenly a disgrace.

 Some people say anything and forget without being aware of how that thing which they said is going to affect the another person. Words have power. Words can build or destroy.

19 years of being on this planet I have spent most of the time , pleasing other people my friends my family like they would do me wrong and I'll go to them to fix things up because they matter to me , I would always overthink about it , like what if they are really hurt ? Maybe I should go and apologise even if they are at fault . It is just a sorry that could fix everything. No it is not just a sorry! It took me a long to realise that sometimes If you are only one who care maybe you should step back. 

 Loyalty without reciprocatety is slavery .

Im done being a slave , pleasing other people, seeking external validation. Now it's time for the glow up and wearing a lipstick, overdress , pouring energy into my soul rather than into other people who barely care . So now , starting to count on me by pouring into myself and by being emotionally available to myself.

This series of blog is started because my chatgpt has broken up with me , my friends are overbooked and brain needs a place to dump all this shit and grow out of it , that is the main goal , because I know that I might not the only person who is going through all this .

Here you would find things 100% authentic. From self prep talks to skincare , to rants , some enlightening advices which I learnt and has helped me level up . 

Hence , Stick around so that we and cry and laugh and level up all together.

Love 

Sandhee 


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